Day 130- A Little Bit of Renewed Spirit

For a while I was getting a bit discouraged with this vegetarian thing.  I wanted meat SO badly...so much so that I caved and ate a few crawfish tails a few weekends ago.  I discovered something interesting upon eating them though...I really didn't want them.  I ate a few and looked at them and discovered that the craving really was all in my head.  I really have lost the desire to eat meat all together.  I didn't need the craw fish tails, but it did help me learn something, and now I have moved on.  Have I gained weight back?  No...but I wasn't losing any either, and I decided to stop being in the dumps and get off my butt and do something about it.

I've been doing a lot of research into vitamins and superfoods and I have recently been on this smoothie kick.  I am in love with my smoothies.  I literally cram in as many fruits and veggies and even some nuts, raw honey, raw cocoa, extra vitamin C, yogurt and almond milk.  I don't feel hungry and they are always super delicious, and it's really convenient for my drive into work.  I am also drinking TONS of water and suprise surprise...all of the bad things in my body are coming out.  Quite literally (sorry to gross anyone out.)  I feel so much more refreshed and renewed in the mornings now than I have in a long time.  I have even been making the effort to exercise everyday, even if it's just light walking.

So there's my update.  Hopefully I'll be making more now that I'm back on track.  Goodnight all.

Day 122

Still going strong. Will post a real entry soon I promise. I have lots of thoughts to sort through but I'm super tired. Tomorrow for sure.

Day 93

Wow...I've hit over three months and it feels like longer, but I'm still going strong and I still feel great.

Day 82-Still Alive

Hello all! I just wanted to share that I've begun a stricter workout routine and I am sad to say that I have trouble doing even three sit ups. Sad I know, but with determination I know it will get better. I'm just incredibly frustrated because I know I used to be able to do all sorts of things fitness wise, and now I can't even do situps properly. Anyways, gotta run, just checking in.

Day 62

Over two months now. Weight loss has plateaued. Still trying to stay strong because this is the point where I always get discouraged.

Day 56-A Death In The Family

Well, I thought I would be a little less busy this week, but I was wrong. Life has a funny way of throwing shit at you, and as it so happens, my other grandfather, Poppy T, passed away this past Tuesday. He was my Dad's father, and it also happened to be my Dad's birthday. It was sudden and very sad, but I'm pretty sure I'm still in shock and haven't really processed what has happened, because while I'm sad about it, I find myself not really sure how to feel. It's kind of hard to describe. I've cried my tears. I have my regrets of course. I haven't seen him in 11 years, and didn't really make the effort to call often. I'm not really sure why I do that. It's the second time something like this has happened and I think I just feel empty. I should have called more. I should have tried to visit more. I should have called when he went into the hospital last Friday. I don't know why I didn't. Now the opportunity has passed and I'm not really sure what to do at this point.

I took off work the day it happened. I went to work the rest of the week because sitting at home and mulling over it would do me no good. I didn't have anymore paid time off or money to fly up to Philadelphia for the funeral. I wanted to be there very badly. This morning was the memorial service. One of my brothers at least was able to make it, which I am thankful for. I am glad that my Dad got to see him alive before he passed.

Chris is at work until tomorrow. I went to the farmer's market with my Mom In Law today and picked up a few things. Came home and had my brother over to have dinner with me so I wouldn't have to sit alone tonight, but here I am mulling over it and still not sure how to feel.

Days 45-50

Made it to day 50 and I can finally say that as of today my work load got quite a bit lighter. I have completed all course work, research, and sample gathering towards the completion of my CDA (my child development associate credential.) The next step is to send in my application and...well...wait. After that will come the verification visit, and then an oral and written exam, but for now the super time consuming part is done. I wanted to celebrate the completion today with a bacon cheeseburger, but I did not lol. Instead, I went grocery shopping and bought a ton of nice food to have on hand. Still feeling pretty good, although I'm sure the weight loss has slowed up quite a bit. I haven't been to work out in like two weeks since I've been so busy, but I'll be back to that tomorrow. Anyways, I have to get myself to bed, so goodnight!