Day 56-A Death In The Family

Well, I thought I would be a little less busy this week, but I was wrong. Life has a funny way of throwing shit at you, and as it so happens, my other grandfather, Poppy T, passed away this past Tuesday. He was my Dad's father, and it also happened to be my Dad's birthday. It was sudden and very sad, but I'm pretty sure I'm still in shock and haven't really processed what has happened, because while I'm sad about it, I find myself not really sure how to feel. It's kind of hard to describe. I've cried my tears. I have my regrets of course. I haven't seen him in 11 years, and didn't really make the effort to call often. I'm not really sure why I do that. It's the second time something like this has happened and I think I just feel empty. I should have called more. I should have tried to visit more. I should have called when he went into the hospital last Friday. I don't know why I didn't. Now the opportunity has passed and I'm not really sure what to do at this point.

I took off work the day it happened. I went to work the rest of the week because sitting at home and mulling over it would do me no good. I didn't have anymore paid time off or money to fly up to Philadelphia for the funeral. I wanted to be there very badly. This morning was the memorial service. One of my brothers at least was able to make it, which I am thankful for. I am glad that my Dad got to see him alive before he passed.

Chris is at work until tomorrow. I went to the farmer's market with my Mom In Law today and picked up a few things. Came home and had my brother over to have dinner with me so I wouldn't have to sit alone tonight, but here I am mulling over it and still not sure how to feel.

Days 45-50

Made it to day 50 and I can finally say that as of today my work load got quite a bit lighter. I have completed all course work, research, and sample gathering towards the completion of my CDA (my child development associate credential.) The next step is to send in my application and...well...wait. After that will come the verification visit, and then an oral and written exam, but for now the super time consuming part is done. I wanted to celebrate the completion today with a bacon cheeseburger, but I did not lol. Instead, I went grocery shopping and bought a ton of nice food to have on hand. Still feeling pretty good, although I'm sure the weight loss has slowed up quite a bit. I haven't been to work out in like two weeks since I've been so busy, but I'll be back to that tomorrow. Anyways, I have to get myself to bed, so goodnight!

Days 33-44

Busy busy busy but still alive and vegetarian. Just a quick check in.

Days 28-32, plus a weigh-in

Today marks exactly one month since becoming a vegetarian. I am down 13 pounds. My skin feels better. I don't feel disgusting after eating anymore. My eczema is gone. Unfortunately I do not have a decent enough picture to post because I need someone here to take it, so I will have my husband take one tomorrow. I tackled the first month and I am proud of myself for having done so. Here's to the next month.

"Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future." ~Deepak Chopra